Not Healing, Struggling Mentally. Would Love Some Advice
TW: Mental Health Struggles
Hi, I haven't posted in this sub before but I felt I needed to because I have been struggling lately.
I've been dealing with my pilonidal cyst for like 5 months now. It wasn't major or anything, just a small area that had minor pain.
I ended up going to a doctor and eventually ended up getting surgery. It was an excision, and involved stitches which were removed around 3 months ago.
Present day, I am really frustrated. I've seen my doctor a couple times since my appointment. He claims it is "healing" and not infected, but it just doesn't feel right. I still have pains sitting down, and it occasionally leaks blood or clear liquid (kind of like sweat). My doctor suggested that I do sitz baths and not to sit as often. I have been doing both of these things. I do sitz baths every day, and I am at a standing desk currently where I try to sit down barely at all if possible. After all this, it still doesn't feel like it's getting any better.
This whole thing has seriously affected me mentally. The whole deal grosses me out and makes me extremely self-conscious about myself. I though getting surgery would alleviate the issue, not worsen it. I've had anxiety and depression in the past, but this situation has made things much worse. I just want to feel normal again.
If anybody has dealt with a similar situation or just has advice on what I should do, I'd really really appreciate it. This has seriously been bothering me for months and I just want it to be over.
Thanks!