u/BerryBear119

I’m not really sure why I’m posting this but I just need people who understand and no one in my life really seems to get it.
On the 28th Dec 2025 my mum died of cancer. We were supposed to be moving into a bigger house in Feb, partially so we would have space to care for her. My husband asked if I still wanted to move and at that time I did, because I knew my mum would want that. Anyway, lost of boring delays etc.
10th of April 2026 and we had to put my soul dog to rest, also due to cancer. This was completely unexpected, he was only 7.
I told my husband I no longer wanted to move house, this was different. 7 years worth of memories of his life are in this house. We do need a bigger house as we’ve outgrown this one and I know it’s selfish to have asked but I’m not ready to go. It feels like leaving him behind. I know my son needs a bigger room etc but I really think moving may break me completely. The past 4 weeks have been the hardest of my life. Losing my soul dog on top of already grieving for my mum has been brutal.
My husband has gone ahead with exchanging contracts etc and we are 100% moving. I just feel physically sick about it.
I don’t want to move all of my bears stuff and I don’t want to leave all of his little spots or the last place I held him. I’m just not ready. I don’t know how to do this.