im just dirty looking, grimey, bitten nails (thanks stress response), greasy hair, dirty greasy skin, backne, over emotional and slow all wrapped into one. i could never participate in normie society because they all go too fast for me. zoom zoom. im like a turtle in comparison. i guess im tanky like a turtle. i have thick skin but my insides are soft. but yeah. i have an odor ive been told, and im grimey. so is my living space. i dont humanly have the energy to clean it either.
people used to insult me and i'd just take it, mainly because i couldn't really fight back due to my slow processing speed. id always catch up when looking at things in retrospect. im such a cyborg, so emotionally detached. emotions are a curse in a way. emotions can cause great highs but great lows. i don't know why i am in this world to begin with tbh. i wish id stop complaining on this forum but seriously i wouldnt know what to do with myself. im super autistic when i talk and i cannot for the life of me covert any normies to my cause, or socialize with them. its just so fucking hard. i made such a fool of myself in the past. idk