I lost it today. I’m sick, tired, and overworked, but I still showed up with a smile—only to be lectured 15 minutes into my shift for something I had already tried to prevent, but no one paid attention to. Now everything has fallen apart, and I’m still the one being blamed. It honestly feels like bullying—with pay.
I’m so tired of hearing “let’s communicate” when messages go unanswered, and I still end up being blamed for not following up—even though I’ve already followed up multiple times.
I’m starting to feel frustrated and confused about what’s expected of me as a manager. Despite my efforts to be proactive and communicative, the outcome seems to be the same.
And of course, showing emotion is seen as unprofessional, so I have to discretely let those tear outs—otherwise, there’s a risk of being perceive as weak and unprofessional.
I think that was my first mental breakdown with pay 🥲