Struggling to cope.
This has been one of the worst weeks of my life. I'd made a vet appointment for my sphynx cat, my little guy Boris last Monday as his breathing seemed a little off. They wanted to monitor him overnight and do some tests. We'd found out the day after that he had HCM and gone into heart failure. With about 6-12 months left with him. We were sent home with heart medication and for the past week I had him wrapped up in a blanket in his bed so I could watch over him. The thought of not having long left with him felt like being hit with a brick. Then yesterday he climbed up onto my chest and we cuddled for a nap. After waking up from a nap he was gone, with his head resting in my shoulder. Everything has happened so fast and I am heartbroken. I have gone between sobbing or completely numb.
I got Boris at a point in my life when I'd lost everything. A 12 year relationship, my home and my job and after a failed suicide attempt.
Over the space of a week everything has changed. I'm completely crushed and devastated. I want my boy back.
I have his half sister too and seeing her wandering around looking for him is breaking my heart. I need to still be here for her. I'm struggling to cope.
My boy Boris was only 4 it was going to be his 5th birthday next month.