u/BeingLucky859 — reddlx

so in the past I identified so strongly with my cycle and its fluctuations and would have very … wonky thoughts and feelings (ie ideation of self harm for yeeeeears) and behaviours, but have made some changes in the last little while which made this last luteal phase smooth as heck! Shockingly I got my period today when I felt a bit of tension and sleeplessness last night, thinking that I would need to double down for the next few days- thinking I would have a few more before i started bleeding. Last month was rough as I was travelling and dealing with some family things during the trip - but I decided I wasn’t going to blame my sensitivity or my cycle or anything; people were just genuinely being abusive. through that rough period last month I still made sure to take time to meditate and chant (if you are interested in Buddhism, please let me know- i have some which are wonderful for self regulation), breathe and stretch and just reflect despite traveling and having very little privacy with inconsistent and abusive family, going through a period of nicotine withdrawal.

this cycle, I was primarily at home but with a much safer person, and started doing more gentle yoga and Pilates and maintained my routine of mantras and meditation and inner reflecting. on the first day of luteal I noticed a slight shift in me (some negative thoughts in the morning and sudden waking up at like 4am). but I started taking two supplements which are adaptogenic and also help manage glucose in the body (I will post a photo of them) as I know that both stress resistance and balanced blood sugar are imperative to feeling safe in the body. and yeah, I was not removing nicotine this cycle either hahah

I was told I would need to take bc or SSRIs at points or isolate myself and basically live in fear of my PMDD and/or that it was a personal failing of mine if I wasn’t perfect all the time. that I would need to cut out all caffeine and sugar and pretty much just suffer.

I will see how next month is, but honestly changing my thinking and making some small changes to my routine (and taking space from shamey people) made all the difference for this cycle.

I know everyone’s journey looks a bit different but I am just so grateful and happy and honestly surprised and proud of myself for how I managed this cycle.

I just really wanted to share this win ❤️🎀

u/BeingLucky859 — 7 days ago

▲ 10 r/Subliminal

our desires are valid, but what struck me today (I use my own affirmations and tapes primarily) while looking for world peace/healthy earth subliminals was that they barely have any views, if they exist at all. it doesn’t seem to be a priority above material goals or vanity or SPs. curious to know anyone’s thoughts on this. ❤️

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u/BeingLucky859 — 8 days ago

▲ 85 r/WitchesVsPatriarchy

somebody posted a pic here recently of their laptop stickers (can’t find the post!) and I was so tickled that I decided to post my own, since they are so different yet still witchy :)

u/BeingLucky859 — 8 days ago

▲ 48 r/NevilleGoddard

this is my first post here, and wanted to share something comforting and motivating (if a little “tough love”) I wrote to myself; I’ve previously struggled a lot with perfectionism when it came to my thoughts and was worried about my fears and doubts manifesting. when I really accepted that the fears and doubts were just old mental habits from an old identity, the struggle and resistance completely fell away. and I’ve not had to look at this note since, because I already know what to do now.

hopefully this may help others:

It’s the unconscious fears that may shock you and come out of nowhere.

So stop f*cking panicking over nothing if it’s something you know just makes you nervous.

How many times in your life have you spiralled over the worst case scenario and IT NEVER HAPPENED?

Vs how many times have you been sidelined by some weird nonsense you would never have even considered?

Look at the feedback in your life. Do not judge or be ashamed of it.

You’re obviously a different person now, and deeply aware of things compared to back then and can handle way more without completely losing yourself and freaking out. You are capable of regulating more than you have ever been.

Noticing and knowing previous patterns empowers you, it doesn’t automatically make you a slave to them happening again. It’s impossible unless you give in and say yeah this always happens to me and all people are like this or this. Give it a rest.

Give yourself a rest. You’re safe. That stuff that happened with [people] are irrelevant now! [My partner] is a different person - because why? BECAUSE YOU ARE.

because you’re right, you have done the work! You’re constantly breaking cycles and it is so impressive. You’re not giving in!

and please remember how easily you were like “it’s done” even despite having to feel some feelings and do some other inner work. That is something to be deeply proud of. Wavering is whatever. Analyzing is whatever. Just don’t give up and don’t get dysregulated if you can help it. Don’t act on old impulses like victimhood (the old stories sure tried to get you to do that didn’t they!) and manipulation or force of the 3D or panic and spiralling.

You are doing amazingly. You are adjusting your routines but not completely switching them up. You’re deepening. You’re simplifying. Next you just have to integrate everything so that your whole life is included in building fulfillment and security etc. Balance it all out girl. Don’t completely abandon chanting and mantras and deep breaths and keep being consistent in the wish fulfilled. You got this.

Doubt and fear is just resistance. Don’t resist it or fight it back.

it is done. what a relief.

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u/BeingLucky859 — 8 days ago