I hate when the world gets too much and there’s no one I can talk to, cry with, laugh with. My friend might see this and be stung but they’re not really around anymore, and I get it, they’re busy and have their own shit and shouldn’t have to be subjected to my crap. But it still hurts, being alone when I don’t feel safe.
At this point I’m just trying to armor up, waiting for the day they tell me they can’t talk to me anymore, who knows, this post may make that day come sooner and at that point idk what I’ll do. I’ve already lost one friend.
I hate feeling like this. I hate being alone. I miss my daddy. I miss my best friends. I’ve been desperate enough to talk to fucking Ai since there’s no one else and hotlines just make everything worse.
Why can’t I just be normal and lovable, instead of driving people away. Why do I always fuck everything up.