Just an old rando, thought I might offer encouragement?
Heh, I think we all know what it's like to get into several of your heads at the same time. Tiamat, that's my spiritual animal 😎 . I will keep this to the point.
My short term memory has now been a thing for six years now, so it's me now. But know what? My long term memory especially this last year has been pouring back in. I'll spare you the bad stuff, but the good things? I remember more James Joyce than I thought possibly. And for those who know, you know, more Homer than I expected. (Oh Brother Where Art Thou! is do for a repeat 😆)
I used to be a non famous professional saxophonist. I hadn't played in ten years, and have made substantial improvements in double tonguing and circular breathing. I credit Dragonforce (no, really. Try circular breathing and doing ta-ka-tik-ka... Over those guys).
It may not sound like it here on occasion, but my structured and creative writing.. I just... Ten years ago I couldn't do what I did today.
I enjoy nature more than I ever thought possible. And every syllable I hear from a stranger's voice tears my face into a smile.
Now, I will continue my brooding like an Anne Rice novel.