Blue-belt blues
So I always heard about the blue-belt blues but right now I'm really feeling it.
I got promoted at the end of last year and like people say the lack of a sense of something close to aim for, just a long road to purple-belt and beyond is hitting hard.
I've always been really hard on myself when it comes to training and although my coach says otherwise I feel like I've completely plateaued or even regressed, I often don't feel too interested in drills and really don't want to roll at the end of class. Basically I'm phoning it in.
There's a few new guys who've come in for the last couple of months and are big strong athletic guys and just seem to pick it up like a sponge, and to be honest I already struggle with them in rolls and feel theyre going to pass me out soon ability wise, and its the usual getting flattened and destroyed in rolls by the purple/brown belts which of course I expect but starts to feel like a chore after a while.
Any advice for reframing things and rediscovering motivation? I know it's your own journey, you just have to keep showing up etc. and that's exactly what I'm doing but to be honest at the moment it just feels deflating, demotivating at times I just go home feeling embarrassed rather than that I had a good workout and it was fun.