honestly just reached my breaking point and im done. day 1 of a 30 day blackout starts now.
was with my ex for over a year and we were each other's first everything. i was always there for him and his safe place when things got bad, but he ended up telling me to f-off in the most disrespectful way just to act tough.
the part that hurts is he already has a rebound and she’s literally 15. it’s just weird to watch... she’s always posting about drinking slushies and reposting these shaky heart quotes about "ruining things" and "safe places." it feels like he went from a real connection to just dealing with high school drama. she’s clearly super insecure and hides behind filters and stuff while i’m just trying to stay focused on my TAFE work and my art.
im curvy and i’ve worked hard to be happy with my body, so seeing him go to someone who is so mentally all over the place is just confusing.
i haven't posted in a few days and he’s already cracking lol. he just posted this sad boy bait video driving in the dark to some song about "i wish you still cared for me." he’s definitely waiting for me to view it or reach out but i’m staying a ghost.
im not biting. no posts, no views, no contact for the next 30 days. i need to put that energy back into myself and my family. by june 6th i want to be in a much better headspace.
ill update after 30 days to tell you whats happening. wish me luck.