u/Beep_Beep_Margie_

I’m autistic.

I take things literally.

Whenever I’ve taken people up on this offer, they’ve often acted weird and distanced themselves from me.

But services are backlogged and underfunded.

I often utilise 111 option 2, because Samaritans often don’t pick up.

I feel so alone.

I know these thoughts and feelings will pass. I’m just tired of having to do it by myself. I wish I could just sit in silence with someone, but all my mental health has done is just scare people away.

I know it isn’t an excuse, and I try not to act on my thoughts and impulses.

But the patience I have… the compassion… the empathy, it just fucking disappears. And it’s shit because it isn’t me, for fuck’s sake. Don’t take away the one thing that makes me, me. Please.