Scared to have a stroke
Hey everyone, new member here. So in the past 2 weeks I had 3 episodes of TIA, 1 while I was at work, 1 while I was in the vehicle (passenger) and 1 very scary one while me and husband were out grocery shopping. My most recent episode I was urged to go to the ER, so we went and spent all day there. I explained to them my symptoms (left arm and leg numbness, partial neck numbness, tunnel vision, light headed, slurred speech and not making sense while talking). It started when I was talking to my husband and everything that came out of my mouth didn't make sense at all, then came the numbness and the rest followed. My husband didn't really care and kept walking while I was dragging myself through the store to finish our shopping. Anyways I finally get my results and sure enough it was a TIA and the dr explained it as my body's warning sign, he referred me to a stroke prevention clinic and now I'm terrified. My blood pressure started getting high while I was pregnant with our 1st baby and it's just stayed around even after I had our 2nd.
I feel like this is my fault because this whole time (1 year) I haven't been taking my medications or measuring my blood pressure due to having 2 very young kids close in age (2 year old & 1 year old) and just not having the time. I feel like I'm responsible for this and that there is nobody to blame except for myself and it is, my husband suddenly cares and doesn't want me eating anything that has sodium in it which now results in me hardly eating anything during the day except for snacking on an orange or something to help ease my hunger pains. As I scroll through this sub I see all these amazing people that have survived a stroke and are dealing with recovery and healing which is amazing but it terrifies me thinking about it happening to me. I can't imagine having troubles carrying my girls, not being able to tuck them into bed, take them on walks to the park etc. Thanks for reading to whoever got this far.