Did you matter?!?!?
You didn't just matter you were my trophy. You were the one thing I had that made it all seem worth it. When I felt like a failure and I was worthless the fact that I had someone so incredibly out of my league was my only source of strength and self worth. You weren't just important to me you were my reason. When I finally saw the truth it broke the foundation of who I thought I was as a man. My entire identity and understanding of the world crumbled the first time I saw a message you tried to hide. And every one after was like pouring salt in the wound while the world laughed and mocked me for assuming someone as worthless as me could ever keep someone like you. You have no idea how degrading it is no remain civil with a man who you know is laughing at you secretly. There's a reason you hear "I took your bitch" in so many songs. Because as a man there is no greater insult. How many men have laughed at me behind my back because of you? And still do. And how the fuck do you ever expect me to recover from a betrayal like that. That would be the worst and final betrayal. It would be me betraying myself. And that I will never do again