Burnout vent?
hey guys!
i've never posted here before, but i always find myself coming to Reddit to see if anyone else feels the way I do. would love either some advice or maybe a reality check/ pick me up?
i am an intern going into rads and i have reallllyyy been struggling lately. i've been super depressed & hopeless over the past 1-2 years. most days im really stressed about whether or not i picked the right field. i'm almost done with intern year and not at all looking forward to starting my rads residency. i'm just not excited about it and i feel i've lost all of my passion for medicine. i worry i chose the field because of my burnout and didn't pick for the right reasons? i know there are a ton of great reasons to pick rads and i have so much respect for radiologists, but i worry it wasn't the right choice for me. im also worried w the rise of ai and uncertainty about future job market (i know, i know lol).
but anywho, it's just so tough with a 4 year residency ahead of me that i am dreading, a move to a city i don't want to go to, and no significant other or really any dreams to speak of anymore. it's so tough to get up in the mornings when there's nothing i want or am looking forward to and i know i'll come home and be alone again.i am also across the country from my family so that's another really tough aspect for me.
i just don't have any drive anymore and am really having a hard time caring about anything at all. i know the answer is probably psychiatrist/therapy haha, but i guess i feel like im wasting my life. it sucks because i used to love people and i went into medicine because i wanted to help lgbtq+ patients, but in rads i really wont get to do that much. i was just so burnt out and couldn't handle any human interaction at all by the end of medical school. i tried meds with no luck, and am just really tired. i'm sure im not the first person to go through this, but man does it suck!
am i crazy for considering switching residencies? i'm absolutely going to give rads a shot first, but i feel like i really need some kind of change to get out of this funk/ find meaning again.
would love any words of advice you guys have! thanks for reading, and keep up the good work docs :)