Dear you,
I saw you at the fair the other day. I saw you as I was walking with my kids. You stood there next to a beautiful woman and a stroller. My heart stopped when I realized it was you. Not because I miss you. Not because I was jealous. Because I was scared.
I spent years getting over what you did to me and you had the balls to stare at me. Screw you. You took years of healing and threw it out the drain just by looking at me and I hate it.
I forgave you years ago, for the sake of my kids. For the sake of my mental health. I guess I didn't heal all the way. As I've been thinking, I realized there is something I need to say. Maybe this will complete my healing journey.
From a young age you destroyed my life. I gave you everything, every ounce of love I had, every first, every being of my will and you did nothing but destroy me with it. You used to tell me that you were doing me a favor because no one else would take me. You used to tell me that I was lucky to have you. We all know that that was not the case, but that doesn't matter. I've grown from that and I've recovered from that side of things. But when I saw you sitting next to that woman pushing that strolle.. I had two thoughts, I hope that you have changed for the sake of that woman. I pray that you are not the violent creature that I remember you, especially after the nightmares I've been having the past few days. And more importantly, as a mother myself, I prayed to any being willing to listen that. You have changed for that child. I pray that you have learned to be kind and strong in the ways that are true and right. I pray that you have learned from your mistakes and I pray that...
I pray that if you could not be a good person for me that you will be a good person for that child because there is too much pain and misery in this world and no child deserves to be taught how to be evil and no child deserves to be treated evily.
My worry is not that you are going to hurt me. That thought has not crossed my mind for many years. I know I am safe. I just hope and pray that the ones around you are safe and I pray that you have changed because it took every being in my body not to walk up to that woman standing next to you and tell her every single thing that you did to me. It took every bone in my body to not walk up to the police officers and finally tell them what happened to me when we were children. What you did. It took every bone in my body. Not to tell her that you stalked me for years after we broke up and that it took me having to lose one of my closest friends, because you decided to go after them to get to me and you told me that it was to get back at me.
If it is you reading this letter if it's somehow finds you, if you feel any remorse for what you did to me, do not come tell me do not come find me as you saw, I have greatly moved on. I have a husband who loves me. I have children. I have a life without you and I do not want you back in it.
What I want you to do is to make sure to be good everyday. Make sure you are good to that woman and good to your child and teach your child to not do the horrible horrible things you did to me. If you're reading this and you do that, you have repaid me for everything that you have done to me. Be good. Don't be evil anymore please for the sake of that child don't be evil.
Good bye,
Me