So my boss just asked me to try to get a clearance for an audit visit. I don't want it. I am looking for ways to drag my feet. I have a hospitalization history for mental health. I have a cannabis use disorder possibly on my medical records. They told me Tuesday. I am just in pure panic. I haven't done much paper work yet. I was not sent the 130 page background document. But I know all this stuff from my past will show up. Is there a way I can respectfully get put of this. Will my boss see the reason why they denied the clearance.
I have a ton of other weird stuff from my past. I remember staying at this flop house with some questionable people. That might come up.
My boss thinks I'm just some boring guy, but I am not a boring guy. I am stable now but there is so much stuff that makes me a bad candidate.
I also don't want to have this responsibility. I am a paranoid person. It took years for me to appear as just some guy. But I am a weirdo :(