This is me finally, reaching out. Just 1 reply will mean the world 💗
. I fluked school. I always left lessons without having a clue what happened. Homework? As long as i knew which page numbers from the textbooks i had to deal with, i would copy the words but mix them around. That's all I ever did. Exams though, most of the time id have blank pages in front of me until the final 5 minutes and then id rush like crazy to get some writing down, increase the sizes of my writing, bigger gaps, and... And... That's about it.
All my adult life I've had friends tell me all the time how severe my adhd is. However, I wasn't one of the naughty hyper active school kids, so nope, adhd, not me.
My current partner who I've known since teens, tells me to research adhd, that my symptoms are text book style.
Thing is, 20 years ago is when I first saw a doctor about it. "next time love, we only have 10 minutes for each appointment" it took me over a year to remember to mention it during any gp appointments. Eventually my GP gives me a leaflet and circles some pointers. CBT, cognitive behaviour therapy, that's what you need, online courses.
I moved home, changed doctors, and for the past 2 decades I've been waiting for referals, for related appointments, to be taken seriously, i was even told by 2 diff GPs "your an adult, you have Internet, what do you actually want from us, it's in your head"
It's taken me this long to admit i really so have it very severe, i can list my reasons easily. However, it's affecting me now more than ever. It's controlling me every hour every day and now i really am concrete adamant that "its not just in my head and i can control it" like what GPs last told me.
I had a long chat with my partner last week "get involved online, reach out online, start with reddit and its adhd groups, it's not just controlling you, it's controlling US"
So, this is me reaching out. I've just turned 50 last year. I know this is a very newbie type post, and just to add it wasn't last week we had that chat, it was more like 2 months ago, maybe even 3.
Thanks for reading it you got this far without going to cook dinner halfway through or getting distracted as my partner jokingly says "oh look, shiny shiny...."