As the title said, I recently cheated on my boyfriend and he found out. This isn’t a sob story for me, but I believe admitting my mistake will help me spend the rest of my life trying to be a half-decent person.
For a bit of context we were having problems in our relationship, no surprise there. I felt like I was being neglected in the things that I needed from him and when we talked about it he said he would try harder, but it just didn’t feel like anything was really changing and I stated as such. The sex was good, but I felt most times like he didn’t desire me and I wanted to feel that. When it came to life and planning out next steps, I felt like I always had to be the initiation for any great change in our relationship. These thoughts along with losing my job due to layoffs, piling bills and the lack of support I felt it put me in a dangerous mindset that let to me making the destructive choice I made.
Once I did it, I instantly regretted it and made the conscious decision to not tell them. I did initially break up with them a couple days later, but I loved them and thought the at maybe with enough hard work we could work. I planned on taking it to the grave and dedicate myself to being the best partner I could in other ways like I’d had been, but they found out and now it’s done.
Clearly I am shit for doing what I did and the anger, betrayal and hurt I’ve caused them will never fade. Has anyone ever been able to redeem themselves for the mistake they made?