u/Backpackkid23

Last Weekend I decided that It was time for me to Send Healing energy to my past. The wounds and situations that I felt was holding me back and creating so much resentment or anger within me and making it hard for me to move on. So i did just that and This week the healing, need to release (cry and sleep) and realizations came slowly but definitely hit HARD yesterday. I sent Reiki to a part of my life where I was very down bad. I wasn’t choosing myself and I definitely didn’t see my worth at all. Yesterday I was hit with one of the biggest Epiphanies.

In that stage of my life I was chasing love & validation from outside of me and in a result got hurt alot. At the time I just didn’t understand why. Why wasn’t I enough or what was it about me that made people not want to choose ME. It created alot of resentment not only towards love but to those people and eventually towards myself. In doing so I felt stuck and stagnated. I felt like that beautiful universal energy was having a very hard time flowing through me. So Let me say this.

In those time I felt that resentment, anger , frustration and whatever else I felt. I was denying myself love & freedom. Choosing things that weren’t for me and being upset that it didn’t choose me back. Clogging my heart with sadness, anger etc. yesterday I was nudged to let it GO & I cried hard and shook while journaling because I kept wondering what it was that was (I can FEEL when something is off energetically in my body or when Something needs addressing) while journaling a image came up of the EXACT moment I shut my love down and dimmed my light and boy did it have a domino affect on my life lol. keeping me from believing that love was real and Now My whole prospective is that love is indeed one of the most beautiful things in this universe. Denying yourself love because others don’t give it is a mental and spiritual jail sentence. Don’t close your heart due to life . Cry if needed. Forgive those who hurt and wronged you. Do what absolutely makes you happy. Keep that Love flowing it is what is true and brings the world together. Reiki flows from crown to heart through our hands. Keep her clean

Idk If anyone have any experience with this but .
Yesterday Morning I was preparing to do my morning Self/past healing session outside. As I was grounding before the session & Thanking the universe and Reiki for the help I smelled a Rotten fish smell for a few seconds. I thought it was my dog because he be smelly sometimes but When I opened my eyes he wasn’t there. I went to smell the trash can and couldn’t smell anything of that sort. So I prayed that whatever entity that didn’t belong to move and That it was not welcome. After my session I smelled it but it wasn’t as strong as the first time. Then When I was in my house In my room I smelled it but this time quicker than the second time. I don’t smell it away from home. This whole thing has me curious. Ive been doing heavy work on my past that had kept me stagnant and In a dark place

So , This year Im feeling very adventurous. I was ABSOLUTELY scared to fly but this year I flown to LA with my bff and enjoyed every freaking second of it. Now I want to take a solo weekend trip to Chicago because Im so bored in my hometown and its getting hot outside but I am having those fear feelings again. The flight is only 2 hours