He is 3 now. He's so perfect. He's so funny and smart. My life has completely changed since he's been with me. He makes me feel so complete.
His bio dad doesn't know about him. Didn't want him. His life was complicated with a pending divorce and custody of his kids. He called my pregnancy a prison sentence.
I don't think he ever wanted kids tbh. He always talked about what kind of person he would've been if he didn't have kids.
I loved him so much and it makes me sad that he's not here. But he wasn't there for me. He assumed I terminated when I really went for an ultrasound. I didn't correct him. He wasn't the best husband and father. He was a child. Talked about how I'd be complicating his life and my life if I had this baby.
My ex is here helping me raise my son. He has been a great father. I wanted my baby and I've provided him with such a good life.
I have so much guilt over all of this and some days I cannot look myself in the mirror. One day everything will come out... but I too was under a lot of pressure. I didn't want to abort. I wanted my baby. And today he is here. He is the best thing to ever happen to me.
I wish I could take it all back. He still would have been an absent father, but I wouldn't change having my son.
Edit to add: the ex is aware. We were broken up and in the process of moving out of the house