u/Background_Care4382

Breakup happened 5 months ago today exactly 5 months ago like he said i never imagined hum kabhi alag honge ! But it did happen ..I am posting this because i am overwhelmed with emotions crying overthinking crying again.we broke up in a few days he deleted my contact I tried to contact him talk see if it can work for us ..but he was adamant it won't ever be like what it was before. I went to his city his house he was so angry with me aaj ke baad tera call nahi aaana chhaiye mujhe ..may be we were always that one conversation away from the breakup! Then I wonder what was all that before this thing the future we planned the efforts i made that love he gave the efforts he took? 10 years is such a long time in these 10 years my every thought move action was for us ..he was the only person I had I felt safest around ..I wish usne mujhe bhot bura treat kia hota I could have forgotten him but how to forget a person who was so nice ! I miss you jaan main kahi yeh nahi bol sakti tumhe bhi nahi and i won't hinder ur peaceful life ....sometimes I feel sab hai I have the money the education the degree everything but not him . I always wanted him! I miss you...I am.loosing myself tarot astrology doing ever stupid thing I can..but someday I will get the closure someday u will get married ...and it's strange how in a split second we were strangers.