im so done.. ive lost hope
well ajkal boht zyada doubt horha hai khud pe. failure pe failure horhe hai pehle jee mains me 94.6 percentile, burnout, bitsat 1 me 207 and didnt workout, viteee me bhi 5k rank, ugee ki cutoff clear nhi hui and comedk bhi accha nhi gya upar se ajkal mocks me scores boht inconsistent ho rkhe hai. despite all this ive been keeping my head down and just trusting the process for bitsat ki nhi kuch to hoga im working hard ill improve lekin today is particularly difficult.. ive lost hope. meri physics and chem boht zyada weak chlri hai and physics especially ajkal boht dikkat krri hai. i thought ki its alr ill pick one chapter at a time and jitna improve ho skta hai utna kru lekin aj jb mai questions krne bethi meri to speed hi nhi hai.. bs yehi dimag me ghume jarha ki time boht km hai nhi ho payega and then drop lena pdega, last chance bhi aise hi chla jayega. i feel dead from the inside. energy nhi hai. will nhi hai. kuch nhi hai. bs mn krra hai ki i just lay down and look at the ceiling all day as i rest without a single fuck abt my life. lekin itne km time me vo bhi nhi kr skti kyunki last chance hai isko bigad diya to another whole year suffering through the same shit. kra kyu kuch smjh nhi arha hai i feel so stuck.