This is a throwaway account on reddit. I (32M) met my AP through our freinds circles. We are both married and can't leave our current marriages. I never thought I was the type to have an affair but it just kinda happened. We built an amazing relationship together that exploded into something magical. We have tons of similarities, similar values, and truly get eachother on a very deep level. The late night texts, the secret meetups, the longing stares when people are around. She became my best freind and confident for anything and everything. My safe space to vent and laugh and cry and be vulnerable.
We've tried calling it quits multiple times. Usually shes the one who wants to end things because of the guilt of the double life. We've taken breaks here and there, but when we bump into eachother somewhere, things spark up again.
We are trying to end it for good. I haven't contacted AP in a few weeks now. I miss her like crazy. Nothing I do gets her off my mind. Do I need to give it more time? Find a new AP? Has anybody been here before and truly moved on? Advice and guidance much appreciated!