I’m finishing up my freshman year of college and I’ve only managed to make like 2 friends, one of them which I’ll be sharing a room with next year. I’m really scared for that. We’ve been each others only friends pretty much, but I can’t help but feel so drained around her most of the time. I want to start fresh next year and put in the effort to enjoy college, because this past year was pretty rough for me.
Unfortunately single dorms were not an option for next year, so obviously we chose each other as our roommate. She’s not usually an energetic or jolly person, we don’t have the same humor, she’s kinda negative a lot of the time, and is very open about her ED and insecurities. In no way am I shaming her for that, but as someone who’s quietly been overcoming one myself as well as general depression and anxiety, I can’t be around such negative energy. It’s clear she’s dealing with her own battles and I only wish the best for her, but I don’t know how I’m gonna handle it. Also, since we are kind of each others only friends, I’m scared i’m going to feel held back and like a traitor if I try to make new friends and involve myself with new people.
I guess my question is how can I continue to be optimistic and branch out next year without feeling bad about it??