I'm in my dream job. Truly, everything about it is perfect. I love the work itself, I really believe in the mission, it's two blocks from my house in a neighborhood I love.
And yet, I can't stop self sabotaging. My boss can be a little bit toxic and started giving some really tough feedback. I corrected course for a little bit, but then I continued to make mistakes and wound up on a PIP.
I was super sick today and missed a deadline, I think it's probably fine given how sick i was, but I'm so scared I'm going to be fired during this PIP. My bosses have both said they want me to succeed here and believe that I can, which I suppose has to count for something, but my goodness am I struggling with self sabotage. It's the constant fear that I'm going to make a mistake and then I do and cycle repeats. I feel like I'm at a loss. Any words of advice? Success stories from anyone who's been in a similar situation? I so badly want to succeed this, but I worry I won't.