Idk
I was groomed online for a looooong time since I was about 12 all the way up till my over 18 age. Anyways, I realized I kind of miss those moments and crave online validation by joining dating apps to talk to multiple people and text inappropriately with them before getting bored (a mutual thing, it’s never been with someone who’s seriously wanted to date).
So, I’m just wondering how to get over that. I realized when I was sitting on my bed bored and really wanted to send an inappropriate picture to someone, and I was REALLY thinking why I’d feel that way. And realized oh it probably because I miss the validation getting groomed as a kid felt. Umm but yeah, I didn’t even realize anything was wrong until I was joking about it and realized I was sending things back and forth to a 26 year old when I was 13.
Also I try to combat this feeling by posting my life a lot on social media and it doesn’t feel the same. And I made this post because I REALLYY feel like downloading a dating app and don’t want to. It’s just like a nagging feeling like craving a food, but not eating it.