TL;DR I thought the toxic posts would help me, but they're not. They're just making me want to kms because I'm scared of failure. Need some positivity.
I'm currently in Organic Chemistry I and I've been struggling all semester. Chemistry was never my strong suit, I needed to retake Chem I three times before I passed it. So I started following the subreddit and found the toxic motivation posts worked. And now I'm here, in what should be my last semester of undergrad before applying to grad school, and I could very well fail.
And now the comments from the toxic posts are all I can think of, and that makes me want to end it all, man. Like, I'm at the point where I'm spiraling. If I fail Orgo, then my GPA will be shot and I won't get into grad school, and then all these years will be for nothing. I'll be a failure and have wasted my time and money and youth on something that amounted to nothing in the end and my future will be filled with regret and financial problems because of my failure.
And the fear is paralyzing. And the paralysis isn't helping me study.
So what are some positive study motivations that you use to get you motivated not just to study, but to continue pursuing your goals for the right reason?