Little moments of passing
I started a new job recently and I'm kind of in the middle of transitioning (MtF). I've grown my hair out and I try to shave/skincare to look more feminine. I think I've achieved androgyny which is awesome. I'm not fully out though; I'm kind of just doing it while still answering to my deadname.
Anyway, I'm at a point now where without my voice, it's not easy for others to figure out which gender I am lol. I've noticed some customers staring at me even though they don't need me. I'll ask if they're alright and need anything, to which they say no. It's a weird mix of affirming and frightening lol.
Yesterday though, my back was turned and a little kid was trying to get my attention. He called me miss and it took me a second to realise he was talking to me. I didn't let it show, but I was so giddy inside!
It's been such a slow and gradual process to get where I'm at now, but even when I'm alone I'm starting to see me as my gender.
Life can be so crappy times, but little moments like that are beautiful 💚