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If I could go back and talk to the younger me
Wonder if I’d believe when I said that’s the girl of your dreams
Rest of your life you’ll be replaying scenes
And missing the one person who made you feel seen
I mean I almost dropped the mask, did as much as I could at the time and I guess that cast a big enough shadow
To shroud the happiness of tomorrow
Is everything borrowed? If so, how do I return the deep pain of the love I lost for passing gains
Thought different things would change the stinging pain that sits in my soul and envenomates my brain
Looking back I had to be insane
Broke two hearts so I could say I was the mane
Leader of the pride, fuck as many women as any other guy
Probably more, I accomplished that goal
But I haven’t really scored since I closed that door
Miss her laugh when it rains and it pours
Pathetic fallacy is hard to ignore
Way back I told her to look at the moon if we weren’t close enough to hold each other like we usually do
Now the night brings back the tunes, we listens together while in the nude, plucks strings that connect to the most important things
Rings replaced with goofy memories of being the person no one gets to see, unconditionally doesn’t come so easily
I Live and I learned, love can burn to ashes placed on the mantle in urns
I’m happy she found someone who could be what she needs but if I can’t give up the turn that I had with all of me