u/Aware_Candidate8979

On a normal day I'm not religious. These have not been normal days. Religious beliefs always haunt me and take over from time to time.

But this time I'm terrified. It's infecting my dreams which is making it feel even more real. It's involving demons now.

It got more intense when I read a couple pages of a left hand path type book. Previous delusions I was the son of Lucifer and he was a good guy.

It's the reverse now. I feel like I'm being hunted or a demon is like right behind me, watching. And I had unknowingly made a deal with the devil. Idk how to function with this.

I am on meds. I take my prn. I have been under a ton more stress recently though. And I'm not handling that well before all this.

I live with family but I mask and keep my beliefs to myself. Especially with the stressful things impacting them.

Again, not religious on a normal day and religious things usually trigger me. I'm just at a loss. Any advice, aside from turn to God stuff?

There currently is way too much going on in my family life right now. And I don't know how to function anymore.

Just got hit with an insane amount of aggression. Probably due to all the family drama and impending deaths of 2 older family members.

I just took my prn of .5mg haldol in hopes it'll calm me down.

All this stress is also making my symptoms pop off. Any time I try to say I'm not doing well they just vent over me.

I don't even know what I want. But I don't wanna end up in the hospital over all this. I guess I just needed to vent. Just to be heard.

Just trying to take it day by day. But I am reaching my limits and wearing out.

There currently is way too much going on in my family life right now. And I don't know how to function anymore.

Just got hit with an insane amount of aggression. Probably due to all the family drama and impending deaths of 2 older family members.

I just took my prn of .5mg haldol in hopes it'll calm me down.

All this stress is also making my symptoms pop off. Any time I try to say I'm not doing well they just vent over me.

I don't even know what I want. But I don't wanna end up in the hospital over all this. I guess I just needed to vent. Just to be heard.

Just trying to take it day by day. But I am reaching my limits and wearing out.