u/Aware-Preparation390

I’ve been taking care of my sister for the past week after a bad breakup, I answer friends calls whenever they need me, I’m patient and I listen as best as I can. I hate to see the people I love hurt. I’d lend the shirt off my back for a stranger. I used to host parties and provide everything and put my experience on the back burner to make sure everyone was having a good time. I’m generous with what little money I have, to the point where I can name quite a few people who owe me but I’d never be a pest about it or anything. I try sooo fucking hard. I’m so very depressed, most of the time I can hardly even find the energy to take care of myself. no one notices, if I don’t text or call first who will? I don’t understand, I feel like I’m such a good friend and though I can be distant at times due to said depression I am alwayssss there 110% of the time someone needs me. I feel like I really have nobody. nobody asks me how I am, I’m either good at hiding it or truly no one gives a shit lol. I will never stop caring though and I guess that’s what sucks the most