so were all group of friends but we each have our own close friends thats like outside of that group and that there are like people who are only close with 1/2/3 or more people within that group

this girl, i’ll name her J, and im her closest friend of everyone since we knew each other since gr 9 and have been friends, i consider her as my close close friend. we’re having a big misunderstanding right now because i cant understand her feelings and thats putting me on a dilemma, thats why i just avoid her and im giving her a cold shoulder…

why?

so before prom tickets sale, theres this girl named S that wants to come to prom and shes a part of that friend group as well as a junior and J kept giving me indirect remark of how S cannot come to prom. J would say something like “shes a junior… why is a junior keep hanging out with us senior” and in our friend group there are people who’s like gr. 13, gr. 11 etc… Then we called each other to have a conversation about that, I asked her what was her true reason why she dont want S to come to the prom. It’s because she dont want me to neglect her and she feels like shes a backup. Why she would feel that way? because when me, J, S and this two other girl when to the mall - J didnt like how I was putting more attention to S rather than looking around to see if someone is getting left-out and in this case, J. I have my reasons 1. we all knew each other and J is very close with those 2 other girls. 2. S wasnt close with this one girl and i thought she would be lonely PLUS i have this thing where i would be only with this person if she would be on the moment.

Some people within our friend group is also coming to prom, and when we had that call J said “she hates how other people from other school is coming to our schools prom” mind u those people are our friends, at least thats what i think. she also added “she dont talk them and its not like shes close with them” like girl u invited those said friends to ur birthday. she also added those said people from other school is ruining her prom plans with me because she imagines herself with me ONLY from taking pictures, talking to doing whatever prom thingy there is, which is gonna get ruined because either those said people will take me away from her and how they’ll disturb her, especially S, for taking pics of other people like S, and I dont know why she would feel that way because why is she acting like S would be only asking her when almost all of our friends within that group is coming to prom like WTH??? she also told me how she dont like how me and this girl named G are talking in a different language, comparing it with these other people she used to be friends with because they would talk in a different language while J was with them. But in my and G’s case, J isnt even a part of the conversation, its MY an G’s CONVERSATION. But overall J told me shes scared of being left out since she has this hierarchy of friends and in her case i’m her numero uno

Then I also dont like how she and this other girl named K (K is not close nor a part of the big friend group but me, J and K are in a friend group) have the audacity to tell me that IDGAF about them anymore just because I began leaving during lunch (because I have a last period spare) and me “not wanting to spend my time with them anymore.” like WTH? just because I go home every lunch that doesnt mean like IDGAF them anymore. Like maybe they’re valid to say that because we rarely hangout as a group because K and J is always busy. But like every hangout plans we have, I ALWAYS GO. They and especially J dont hear me telling her that she dgaf about us anymore because she always go to club meetings and other stuff during lunch. It may not be the same thing but the logic is there. Like who the hell would want to stay at school??? Anyway I responded to all this texts and they apologized and its making me feel like a villain so i asked for a space because it feels like its my fault and im overwhelmed, immature and maybe toxic. Honestly, I dont think J means that apology of hers because I know her, she only thinks about herself and theres no way she would let herself lose but like i cant really say anything about her because Im being insensitive like her. oh at the same time, I got petty and began giving J cold shoulder and I even left her tulips in my locker on purpose, she knows because she opened my locker😃 and that pisses me off like why she would open my locker without my permission? like guys J hates it when people opens/ touch her things without her permission☺️☺️☺️. And my birthday party is coming up and I still invited them😃 I dont know if I talked about why Im giving J the cold shoulder but its because she feels neglected and uncared for and thats exactly why im ignoring her and other stuff.. Also I dont know how to deal with this situation because Im many things right now and I cant bring myself to talk to J and them. Thats why i need tips because this is the first time in my life I have experienced this😇

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