u/Avant-Garde-Mindset

The title says it all but to add more details, I crave a life in nature where everything is green and I see myself accompanied with a dog. I like writing, painting and cooking. I see myself doing those things regularly and living a slow-paced life. I also like spending my time praying, learning and teaching languages. I don't see the need to consume more and buy stuff that I don't actually need like a TV, a smartphone, a car, or any fancy things. I can picture myself working as a teacher in a rural area outside my country. I honestly don't know how to achieve that... I believe that I can do it but I don't know where to start...

First n7eb na7ki 3ala kifeh nadhrti El dawr El mra wel rajel tbadlet. Long story short, I was raised in an environment in which everyone expects me to be a successful and independent woman. As a teenager, I did my best to be excellent at my studies because I got addicted to achievements and being praised and I made it. Kif kbert w walit adult meloul fil 20s d5alt fi 7it w walit unstable ma3ash fehma shnoua n7eb but I still moved forward in life wel 7amdoullah 3omri mad5alt fi thnia 5ayba despite the problems I had to endure. Now I'm in my early 30s and I feel like I know what I want but I'm afraid of it. Basically, walit more conservative in the way I think and I care more about religion. I used to think that women should work as hard as men but now I think this is wrong (of course I respect anyone who thinks otherwise). When I think about the responsibilities that come with marriage, I know that I won't be able to handle a stressful lifestyle of me being responsible for making money. I would rather let my future husband take care of that while I look after the kid(s) and the house chores w masroufi el personnel najem netsarref fih thanks to the education I have. N7es eli I can handle working part time Wala as a freelancer but I'm afraid that having to work full time with these responsibilities would bring drama to my marriage which is something that I want to avoid at all costs. I want to find a reliable and responsible man with whom I share the same values and life goals but my question is: with the rise of feminism and modernity, do these men still exist?

By the way, by posting this I don't mean to downgrade feminism. I think it saved women in so many ways. Thanks to feminism, women could be educated for example. It's just that I see myself happier in a traditional household.