I want a simple and peaceful wedding, but I'm afraid of my family's judgment.
This year was supposed to be one of the happiest of our lives. My fiancé and I planned to get married, build our home, and experience this special moment surrounded by love and support. But unfortunately, we had to postpone our wedding until next year due to very delicate and painful family problems. I won't go into details because it's an extremely complex and emotionally heavy situation. On his family's side, difficult situations occurred involving his father and other relatives, which ended up affecting both of us a lot. And on my side, I also experienced one of the most painful moments of my life: I lost my grandmother last year. What hurts the most is realizing the lack of support from people who should be by our side. I didn't receive emotional support from my uncles during such a difficult time, and I even learned that some of them, along with cousins, went to a party knowing that my abuser would be there. They know the whole story. They know everything. And yet they made that choice. That hurt me deeply. Because of all this, my fiancé and I are unsure about who we really want by our side at our wedding, but at the same time I feel confused and even ashamed to admit it: I'm very afraid of their opinion. Afraid of what they will say, think, or judge about us and our choices. And sometimes I think that's very stupid of me, because these are precisely the people who weren't there for us when we needed them most. Even so, it still hurts to think about disappointing family members or being seen as wrong. I think a part of me still wants to be embraced by them, even after everything. And honestly, I would like advice on how to deal with this, because I'm tired of carrying guilt for trying to protect my peace.