u/Atomiccrown51

I went to go for my dentist appointment today. I felt like heck because I was still recovering from a seizure. I told her that I suddenly developed seizures that I'm waiting on neurologist on Thursday. I told her what triggers that's ive noticed, When I started getting them and how many on average. I say "6 a day" as that's the average I get right now. She says it's too much of a risk right now as I'm unmedicated and haven't been checked yet so they moved my dentist to 1st of June. I took it okay but man I just wanted a normal ass day. I just want to have a normal day to day again. This sucks. I feel like shit. I just wanted this over with

I'm really nervous as my first neuro appointment is on May 14th and I'm nervous. I have logs of my seizures like date and time when I had them as maybe the potential trigger, also noted any auras beforehand and such. I also have a video of one but I'm still really scared. I keep overthinking of these are real and such if mine do even matter enough for this appointment. I keep thinking mine can't be anything serious when I've had people who take care or are epileptic look at me in call have one and show concern it's likely epileptic when I'm fighting with my head saying "no, it can be. I must be just have a panick attack because I have my eyes closed in the video" and I'm always so tired, achy, nauseous, dizzy, confused and a headachey. My friends have had to talk me out of cancelling my appointment because they are worried by how much I get a day

Idk what to do or feel or anything. I'm just so damn nervous and scared and I want to back put of getting my health checked because I feel like they're just going to call me crazy or say to walk it off like last time I was in the hospital (something different, car hit me).

I'm open to advice. Details are in another post I made on this reddit of what my seizures are like but ugh. I'm going to go rest, I'll try and reply quick

Side note: I also hate the fact I feel sick when I see things flash in my eyes, or I have to overextert myself or sometimes out the blue because in like 5 mins. I'll feel like I'm going to pass-out and boom I seize

So yeah its a very dumb question but i keep thinking these seizures are fake or something else a lot and ive been kind of needed a fresh opinion

So when im about to have one i apparently look like im zoning out and having trouble processing words to a point im making word salad as well as walk weird.

on my side, i feel this awful sick feeling in my stomach, a cold sweat and my heart feeling like it took a lead ball. sometimes i feel like immense fear as well

then when it gets to its point. i feel faint like my body is about to give out. i either fall down or slump against something. i usually end up closing my eyes as the faint feeling sets in but there has been times where ive been told to keep my eyes open but i cant process the room at all.

and now here is the tricky part (trying to explain my seizures):
All i remember feeling, is like a weird pressure in my head, breathing is kinda hard and i hear but i cant process the words and it feels like it either goes on for seconds or for minutes but outside it is either super short or about as long as a 1-2 mins but i had instances where i fell or hit my head hard, it stops my shaking but im still kinda out of it (that where i keep thinking these are fake to me) then after i feel like i just woke up from a dream. or like i closed my eyes for too long. then im usually sensitive to light, nausous, dizzy and confused with a difficultly in processing information and my head hurts with body aches. i have had some instances where i cant really move or open my eyes but i kinda groan in pain

on the outside according to my friends, i tense up and start shaking violently and sometimes i drool.

sorry for the mass bad writing that this post has but i thank you for your time and such and hopefully my consultation with my neurologist in may might get started on what help i need

Sidenote: i also kinda have some weird memory issues. like it feels like it took a step or two back