I got a good job, but I don’t think my well being can handle it. I feel guilty for leaving it.
I’ve been through a lot the past 38 months. Yup, I count the months - it’s been that terrible. I left a toxic work environment, even during midst of so much geopolitical tension where I am I managed to find a job I’d actually enjoy.
But since leaving a toxic environment after 3 years, I’m crippled. My confidence is gone, my voice shakes, I burn out after 30 mins and I guess I no longer have it in me unless I take a very long break.
This job is what I needed for months, but I dread before a big meeting because now I’m in a senior position. I’m not the same person as I was pre toxic environment. And it’s not even the peoples fault here, they are genuinely a breath of fresh air.
I’m making the decision to leave this job. I feel extremely guilty but maybe someone who’s actually willing to hustle for it deserves it more. I am so burned out, no idea what’s next for me. Well being is so important, a few bad experiences can have a ripple effect for years.
If there’s any advice I’d give you, leave that job if it makes you miserable, or else you’ll have to give up the good ones later on because of it.