Why are daughters judged for every small thing ??
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I honestly feel so exhausted living in my house sometimes. Today I asked my mom if I could buy some skincare products that cost around ₹2k. I’ve been asking for 6 months, not because I want luxury or makeup, but because I just want to take care of myself a little. Skincare barely takes 5–10 minutes, but she keeps saying things like “just focus on studies” or poor people survive without these things.(i come from a middle class family btw )
What hurt me more were the comments she made about my looks. One day she literally told me that she tells her friends that I’m “not pretty,”and then another day she said I should make my skin darker so boys won’t look at me outside😭 like wtffffff bhaii I genuinely don’t understand how both things can be said by the same person. It broke my heart honestly 💔💔 aur avi bol rhi h ki mbbs ke baad ye sb krna like seriously ?? Skincare krne ke liye v main ab wait karu bachpan se jb v kuch bolo tho phle 10th krle ,12th krne neet krne aur ab mbbs kr le... mujhe itni choti si cheej krne ki v ajadi nhi h ghr pe.. ye to bss ek example hai !!
I already feel terrible because I didn’t perform well this year and decided to take a NEET drop 🥀and instead of feeling supported, I constantly feel controlled and emotionally drained. The worst part is seeing my brother get things easily ( even expensive shitt) while every small thing I ask for becomes a lecture.i know I belong to a middle class family and I never demand expensive stuff, but sometimes I feel like I’m not even allowed to have basic choices for myself. I’m tired of feeling guilty for wanting small things that make me feel better
I’m just tired and wanted to vent somewhere because keeping all this inside is exhausting.