This can sound too dramatic, but hear me out. I just can't accept humans' imperfection, mine specifically, starting with my body (it isn't like I care about my body shape, but the human body with all its flaws, functioning, body hair, sweating, acne etc.), and then my personality flaws. I hate how weak I am, how lazy I can be, how I can't be disciplined enough, how bad I can feel sometimes and how I just can't simply endure that pain. I hate not being considerate enough, kind and patient enough towards people around me, especially those who deserve so much love, who don't expect something huge from me but unconditional love. I hate how egoistic and selfish I can be. I hate how I can break my own inner rules.
This feeling hits sometimes so hard I start to feel disgusted. If I had a chance I would leave this imperfect body. Maybe this will help me grow, become better, idk. I hope so. I know this isn't some extraordinary feeling, almost everyone goes through this at some point, but I just wanted to write about it here...