I can't stay mad
I don't know why but I can never be mad at the person I love. I already forgot the things they did that upset me just because I dont want to ruin the moment. I dont want her to feel bad, even if the shit she did really made me upset. I want to open up sometime about this, but it'll probably just look like some weird manipulation shit to her. I love her to the point that I just forget the stuff she did because, well, I love her. but still, I feel the lingering sense of being upset while forgetting the reason behind it. It sucks. We really are different. Every mistake i made, she remembers very clearly. Every word i said, every action i made, she remembers it. Is she holding a grudge? no, that's too far stretched. I do not know. I know im the one who makes stuff that makes her upset most of the time, but still, I just want her to try and understand my side for once without getting upset or whatever. I hope someday things will change for the both of us.