Hey guys,
I just want to rant or get a little advice because I'm starting to get a little frustrated. Some context: I'm 19 going on 20 this year, and I can't remember a time since I gained consciousness that I haven't tried to lose weight. I'm 167cm or 5'6", and last I weighed myself, I was 95kg or 210lbs. I know this isn't going to be an overnight change, especially because I'm trying to do this in a way in which I can actually stick to it. But I want to lose 15-20kg before the end of this year.
But I'm in my second year of college and living alone, and being in charge of my own groceries/meals has made it easier to actually start a series of lifestyle changes I can commit to. I started calorie counting using estimates in the second week of April and finally scraped together enough of my allowance to get a food scale. So, I've been tracking everything on MFP, choosing healthier alternatives, and basically going against every habit ingrained in me from my African home.
It's been a month now of this lifestyle change, and I genuinely don't feel like I'm seeing any differences. Once a week, I eat at maintenance so I can go out with my friends. I track everything literally and even swapped out my vegetable oil for a coconut oil spray. I also hit the gym 2-3 times a week, and skip breakfast, so I genuinely don't understand why I don't look or feel any different. Obviously, being in college, I don't have a bathroom scale, and I don't necessarily want to start weighing myself too much because I know I have an addictive personality, and I don't want to go from frying pan to fire here lol
I don't know if anyone is going, or has gone, through something similar because I'm really starting to get frustrated here, especially because I'm excluding myself from college activities, which 9/10 involve drinks and fried food lmao.