u/AspectAdept4171

Me and my bf have been together for almost a year. For the first 7 months he was so sweet. So loving, so caring, so adoring. He would’ve done anything for me. He was obsessed with me. He used to call me pet names constantly. He used to be so affectionate and wanted to spend all of his time with me.
He still is all of these things, but not as often. He tells me I am way too affectionate. Yesterday he told me something along the lines “I’ve never had anyone in my life be as loving and as obsessed with me as you are. But that’s ok” and it made me kind of sad. I became this way because this is how he used to treat me too.
I miss the way he was. The way he used to talk to me and ask me all of these questions to get to know me. I miss how he used to be so attentive and so affected by everything I said or did.

I feel like crying all the time. I want to manifest him being that way again but I don’t know what to do or say. How can I believe myself and ignore the 3D without crying when he doesn’t start acting that way again? What affirmations should I use?

Am 23 de ani. Acum 4 ani mama mea a murit de cancer. Am ramas sa am grija de sora mea care urmeaza sa faca 16 ani curand.
Noi stam cu bunica de pe mama, care de cativa ani este alcoolica si poate deveni agresiva verbal/ uneori si fizic. Au existat remarci de a lungul anilor din partea ei asupra sora mii precum “daca te imbraci in roz n-ai iubit o pe maica ta si nu ti pasa de ea”.
Tatal nostru lucreaza in romania dar nu in orasul in care locuim. Nu prea e pe acasa. Asa ca rolul de parinte a trebuit sa mi l asum de la 19 ani. Chiar inainte de asta fiindca si mama era plecata cu tata, dar cand erau pr acasa nu ma implicam la fel de mult.
Sora mea are niste probleme mari cu nervii, intra in probleme, are crize, etc. Este destul de rau. Pierderea mamei a afectat-o foarte mult.
Asadar, nu am reusit sa merg asa mult la seminarii semestrul asta. Mai sunt 3/4 sapt de facultate si nu am indeajuns de multe prezente. Spre deloc. Am maxim 2.
Sunt speriata gandindu ma ca trebuie sa repet anul. Nu stiu ce sa fac.. Am numarul de credite si am promovat primul semestru, dar semestrul asta sunt sanse sa am refaceri la minim 3 materii din cauza prezentelor.
Tatal meu nu stie. S-ar supara si m-ar blama tot pe mine, desi este respobsabilitatea lui sa aiba grija de sora mea. Familia mea e foarte disfunctionala si cu greu primesc intelegere desi incerc.
Am incercat sa vorbesc cu profesorii, dar ori mi-au facut avant ori mi-au zis ca nu trebuia sa imi asum responsabilitatea unui master.
Cateva ganduri bune va rog? Orice sfat e binevenit.