u/Asleep_Shallot_339

“Nothing really matters” and life has no meaning. That's why sometimes that makes me think about using drugs, smoking cigarettes, or other self-destructive stuff because my brain is like “why not anyway?”

But at the same time, when I don’t do those things, I start asking myself: “Then why am I even living like this? Is there any point in life at all?”

I wanted to ask if other people who struggle with nihilism experience this contradiction too. Like going back and forth between “nothing matters” and desperately wanting some meaning or purpose.

How do you deal with it without falling into unhealthy coping mechanisms?