I am annoyed and tired of casual drug and drinking culture. I removed myself from a group that was always high/drunk on something. I was tired of being stoned and having superficial conversations and relationships. When my only 2 non-substance abusing friends checked in on me after my surgery and definitely not during recovery I decided I needed a life change. I joined a gaming group of other 50 and up board gaming folks. (I’m 52f atheist ) today I was asked if I wanted to join them in a (being vague) overnight drug party. My age it’s either too weak and sick to do anything, too religious to do anything, or substance abusers.
I am living sober now and was hoping my new non-religious older gaming friends would be a safe bet. Boy was I fucking wrong. I don’t care what they do but I am
Definitely feeling the FOMO with this. I just can’t go back to that lifestyle because my brakes are broke. One night would be 10 yrs.
I’m just fucking annoyed. The actual thought that hit my head the instant they asked me “ugh, drugs are so blasé” I was polite and said I was busy that night (I am, not a lie, going dancing)
Guess I’ll join that hip hop dance class for old baddies after all. Let these folks hang out in the opium den of despair and fake religious experiences. I am done with drug experiments. Just wish I could find others that are too and not Bible thumpers and they actually give a shit if I’m dying or not, ya know, be a friend. FFS ugh and double ugh ugh 😑 that is all. If you made it this far you’re a trooper. 🫂