I beat it (Atleast for now)😃
I've always been really interested in aviation. 5 years ago I dived deep into the aviation world and became an avgeek. My first flight was back in 2014. I don't quite remember how it was since it was so long ago but I am sure I did not have a fear of flying back then. Since 2014 I've taken 15 flights. On my 9th flight back in 2022 I felt a really bad stomach drop 2 times on takeoff. Since then I got a fear of flying. That fear was only because of the stomach drop and nothing else. I dont know how it got so but its probably because I haven't flown since 2020. There were plans to go to Bulgaria by plane in 2021 but they failed. Then after 2 flights in 2022 there was a long break. Now came 2026 and I needed to fly. On my first flight in 3 years the stomach drop still was there. I flew 3 times in the span of a week and then there was a 2 month break. On my 4th flight of 2026 the stomach drop was significantly less painful. Then after 2 days came my 5th flight of 2026. The stomach drop on this flight was even less noticeable then the one on the 4th flight. And I wasn't shaking on boarding. After the flight I understood that my fear of flying was probably over. I will have to fly 3 or 4 more times in a month or two tho. After that I'm scared that if I won't fly for long the stomach drop will come back intensified. But overall I can finally enjoy the full glory of aviation (atleast for now).