u/Aromatic_Piglet_1772

On TikTok, I repost videos that are directed at her. Sometimes it’ll be subtle, like a song we both have mutual attachment to.

Other times, more direct like songs with lyrics that describe my feelings. Lyrics such as “thought maybe you call me”.

Sometimes I just post humorous stuff like “when you become a mathematician so you show up in her textbook so she will always see me”

One thing to note is, this is the first week of our breakup. The first few days she’s view my profile and then 3 days ago, she turned off her profile views so I wouldn’t be to see her watching anymore. 2 days ago, she blocked my account.

The block confuses me a little because apart from the reposts I made no official attempt to contact her. You could also argue that the reposts are an attempt.

Also, her account has 0 followers. The reason I mention this is, if you want to fully remove access to me, why block me instead of going private? She knows I can just go on a second account to watch her reposts, and if she wanted to fully remove me, going private would do this. Going private would normally be doing too much because that would remove everyone who isn’t following, but she has no social activity on this account.

She still posts reposts that are slightly about me even after the block but again, they may not. For example she posted something about, “being consoled by the person who made you cry”. When we made mistakes and hurt the other person, we would always be right there for each other and cry in each others arms. She actually reposted this right around the time I was blocked.

She also has reposts that give me a little mixed signals because a lot of them are subtly related to me, but not to where I can definitely say they are.

What could this all mean? Should I stop reposting as well?

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u/Aromatic_Piglet_1772 — 17 days ago

I accidentally called her in my dream, and she immediately answered taking about how happy she was I called her.

We talked and then told me she how much of a freak she was during our no contact and how she slept with a bunch of guys. (1 week 3 days) shit made my stomach twist and jump out of bed.

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u/Aromatic_Piglet_1772 — 17 days ago

Everyday we sit here in sorrow, the same people who broke us don’t even think about us.

While we sit here and ruminate what we could’ve been, and how we could’ve done better, THEY are meeting new people, getting good jobs and seeing success.

It just hit me, I spent 2 fucking weeks crying. 2 weeks of my life vanished. 2 weeks of productivity gone. 2 weeks of self improvement gone.

Lost 10 pounds of gym progress, haven’t been studying for finals and for what? Haven’t even been able to eat properly. Just for her to not have thought about me one time?

If they ever do come back, are they gonna want to make things work with a bitch who stayed in the same spot while they improved their lives? Hell nah. Become such an unrecognizable person to where you will be the one rejecting them when they come back.

We are human, and we should be allowed to cry. But I want to make it clear do NOT bedrot and keep your life on pause. You got like a max of 2 days for bedrotting as a recovery process and after that, back to business.

This is YOUR life. Create it fn

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u/Aromatic_Piglet_1772 — 19 days ago