Hello all, bp1 fellow here. Seeking some support after nosediving in some shame recently. I had a manic episode last week after being in a comatose off abilify for a bit. (Need to adjust my dosage obviously). It's wild that just drinking a few red bulls will send me I to at least hypo mania.
Anyways, I made some poor decisions whilst manic mostly texting people random shit. Seemingly loads of messages still buffering with the shame.
Literally ended a best friend due to my escapades this weekend.
What's been your best practice for not overdosing on the shame while also taking radical responsibly? How do you balance these two things.
Sometimes I worry I'll never change but so desperately want to be a better person to the people around me. Any feedback would be great.