31F, PE 2 weeks ago, and recently diagnosed FVL (inherited from my dad). I was originally prescribed Eliquis, had an allergic reaction on my second dose. Now on Xarelto but dealing with side effects and after affects - dizzy, pressure headache, general malaise/very tired, random pains, panic attacks, and now maybe depression?
I went right back to work, tools some half days but generally tried to maintain some normalcy. I feel off at work too, like my brain is running at 60% capacity.
Meet with a hematologist in early June, have a local doctor in the meantime. He gave me Clonazepam for the anxiety but I don’t feel comfortable taking it as prescribed (1mg 4x / day) and have tried taking it as needed twice.
I’m too tired /feel shitty to work out, I feel like I’m screwing up at work. My poor husband has been so supportive but I feel terrible for putting him thought this. It’s our anniversary and im feeling like garbage and have been on the verge of tears all day because I feel so bad I’m ruining everything. I’m facing life changes like never being able to scuba dive again, the worries around having kids, and a million other things.
I know it’s not a big deal because my dad has it and has lived a totally normal life. How do I stop spiraling?