Just got my Pap smear/cytology results back and heartbroken
I never thought this would ever be me but I just got my Pap smear results back and it looks like they devoted LSIL encompassing mild dysplasia from HPV (CIN1), I know that means risk of cancer is low but I just feel so tainted. I know the stigma is far worse than the reality but I can’t help but feel like my life is over. And it feels especially heartbreaking bc I got the gardasil vaccine and have only ever had 2 partners and regularly get STI testing so I always assumed I was being careful….all I can hope is that my body clears the infection soon enough but all I can think about is what this could mean for my dating life. I know at some point statistically most people get exposed to the virus and all that but I can’t help but feel like I’m dirty. It made me regret not waiting till marriage honestly. I know I’m not being logical now per se but my thoughts have just been spiraling and I felt the need to rant on here. It feels like my dating life is over and I’m only 25….any advice on how I can cope with this anxiety and shame would be much appreciated