Can I recover from my terrible freshman year??
Hello, I’m a freshman at my university and just finished spring semester.
To be honest my grades were awful second semester. (C average, got a D in one of my mandatory classes). I had accommodations summer and fall semester as I took classes last summer as well, but didn’t use them since I never used them during the previous semesters and I assumed they’d be similar to high school with IEP’s and be for a specific subject (mine being math), which they weren’t. I honestly don’t have any excuse for this, I got on adhd medication this semester after being unmedicated for almost a decade, I studied for all of my finals, and passed most of them (excluding math, even with a bonus assignment I failed). I even had to go the ER this semester and still managed to turn in work, with it being late of course.
So I really shouldn’t have messed up the way I did, my stepfather says it’s me not applying myself enough, which I agree with. I didn’t realize how I was doing the bare minimum until the last three weeks of the semester. I was burnt out but from what?? Sleeping all day and waiting til 10pm to do an assignmen. I don’t have friends on campus, I don’t drink or smoke, I don’t go to parties. I really just come home every couple of weekends to see my friends or girlfriend. I do wish I did more but it’s over now. I was on a scholarship and with all honesty I know I’m going to lose and have to pay back next semester. So there goes that. I’m mad at myself and I should’ve done better but I didn’t so I got what I deserved.
But is there any coming back from this? Reasonably, if I’m fumbling my freshman year who’s to say I wont fumble the next 3 years? Why even continue if I’m essentially wasting my parents money and a scholarship…idk I mean I’m sure I can but I have very little faith.