32M in Houston feeling lost and craving a more meaningful life
I’m a 32M in Houston trying to figure out what gives my life purpose, and I’m curious if anyone around my age in the area resonates with this.
I’ve been working remotely in customer service for a hospital for about 4 years now. The income is decent, and honestly it’s the best job I’ve had because it lets me work from home. But despite that, I still feel lost, drained, and directionless.
Going back to school doesn’t really interest me. I dropped out of college because I never found a career path that genuinely motivated me.
Lately, I’ve been fantasizing about dropping everything and working on a local farm, then selling produce at farmers markets. Weirdly enough, that idea makes me feel more alive than anything else right now. Working hard to grow something with my own hands and then giving back to the community through that work sounds incredibly fulfilling to me.
The thing stopping me is money. I’d be giving up a lot of comfort: a decent remote job, an apartment in a neighborhood I like, and the free time I currently have for things I care about, like music.
I hate how conditioned I feel to measure my worth by how much money I make. It’s easy to say “just follow your passion/heart,” but it’s a lot harder when stability and survival are tied into the equation.
Does anyone else around here feel this way or can share their experience? Maybe I’m just ranting and needed to get this off my chest. Also… any farmers hiring? lol